Sunday, December 21, 2008
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12:51 AM
Once again, i'm back to work after one month of study break but soon i'm going for another one month break to prepare for my final exam and i think this time round seriously important. However, today back to work. I have those kind of feelings. I feel like resigning. I feel like making a transfer. I feel like finding another job. I feel that everything is changing. I feel that everyone are changing. I fee, i feel & i feel ! What if i resign?What if i make a transfer? I'll definitely miss those crazy but fun managers whom i love to work with. I have lose the motivation to work on. Have only bee away for just one month, i have already noticed the change. I fee the gap between us, i dont know who i can trust, you have become a stranger to me. I may seem happy, i can joke & fool around but do you actually know how i feel and think inside? I dont even know what i'm thinking because i'm totally confuse on what's going on. Whenever there is any event or occasion, June & i are the one only who will actually fork out our time without being paid to do those decoration whereas the rest are happily enjoying their day out with their friends. When they claim that the decoration/party team are the ones who need to do those decoration. Whenever they have got new promotion, they either go to june or me. Regardless whether i have got school the next day, exam comng up, i stil need to make the effort to think of those decoration. I cant possibly leave june alone to do those job. Its honestly totally too unfair, not only to me but to june also. June claim that its unfair but what can we do? I have been losing temper towardsthe customer when i know i cant doing this but i just cant control myself. Recently i'm being quite bad-tempered. I dont know why too. Viknesh told me that he intend to return back work because he need the money. I have already told muliani and i was thinking: " meaning i cant transfer/resign?" I once told him that if he comes back to work i wont resign but.................................... I dont know! I DONT KNOW! Show me the true colours of yours.
The gap between us is too far apart.
Tell me you're someone whom i can trust.
I can't seems to understand you guys anymore.
Tell me whatever things you said are the truth & not a lie.
Can we be like last time whe we share everything & anything under the sky?
I dont know & i seriously dont wish to know.
